Well, I did it! I finally received my first degree in nursing! (I say first because, of course, I'm going to keep going! Luckily, I will never have to physically go to class anymore.) Finishing school has always been my dream, but until a few years ago, I didn't think I would even get the opportunity until all of my children were grown. Getting this degree may not seem like a big deal to some, but to me....well, those of you who know me know just how hard I had to fight to get here. This accomplishment symbolizes the end of going against all the odds for a very long time. It feels so amazing!
I have to say, these past few years of school, especially those spent in the nursing program, nearly made me have a complete breakdown. It seemed like one thing after another would go wrong. How simple minded I can be at times - forgetting that my God had everything under control the whole time. I just needed to be still and be quiet. God placed in my life the people I needed most exactly when I needed them - my precious husband, who has had the role of Mr. Mom in addition to working a full-time job these past 2 years (and has not complained one time), a church family that welcomed me right back into their arms, my parents who have been my number one cheerleaders since the day I was born, new family members willing to step up when duty called, my sweet friends (old and new) who encouraged me along my journey, and my kids - my smart, sweet, funny beautiful kids who had to put up with so much more than they ever should have. Alex - my humble, dependable young man, Austin - my compassionate, brave look-a-like, Jade - my imaginative, loving mud-pie princess, Cejae - my sweet, funny animal fanatic who would bring home every stray if she could, and Jude - my strong, fearless hero who was my life-line in a very dark time. I'm so humbled to be chosen by God to have the privilege of loving them and being their mother.
Now that it's been a few days since my graduation, I'm feeling a little out of place. Sure I'm enjoying my family time and getting so many things done around the house, and I definitely do not miss the constant studying or paperwork. However, I have this unrelenting sense of urgency and it's making me feel anxious. I have absolutely no reason to feel this way, but here I am, feeling this way. I'm sure it will get better with time.
I do miss some of my classmates terribly, though! The camaraderie that is built when you go through anything that demanding is amazing and such a blessing. I truly love my nursing school buddies. They made showing up day after day, sometimes before the sunrise, a little more bearable. You know who you are.